Being A Christian, Take Three

I'm so glad I have my CSF family to back me up in my tough decision to further explore being a Christian, and to actually answer God's calling. I may not still know my exact purpose in life, but I'm pretty sure I will eventually discover just what it is God wants me to do with my life. I wouldn't be able to successfully make this tough decision to further explore my Christian faith if it weren't for my CSF family. You guys are the greatest!
With my CSF family at my side, I'm well on my way to learning what my true purpose in life is. I've tried to figure it out on my own, but that has been really tough. Discovering this by attending church back home hasn't really allowed me to see this opportunity for myself. Sure, I was attending church because I knew that God had a plan in mind for me; however, I felt like it was really something my mom wanted me to do- although I wasn't getting into any kind of trouble.
Now that I am at UIS, I'm taking the "first step" in finding out for myself exactly what God has planned for me. I no longer have to hear messages that make me confused- messages about what I should do to become a good Christian. When I began exploring Christianity, I was attending the Illinois School for the Visually Impaired, and we had to take a course to learn the ways of the Church, as well as regulary attend Service on Sunday- which was tough for me as a result of the church not being easy to get to. Therefore I had to drop out of the program.
About two years ago, I tried again, only I had to take a three-month course that covered the same things I had just attempted to learn in the high school course. I did get confirmed on Easter, but looking back on these two very similar experiences, I really don't consider myself as being ready and prepared for living the Christian life because the courses didn't really talk much about the history of the Church- mainly about what you are and are not supposed to do. . . which wasn't very informative for me, I think.
Here at UIS, I think that I am now ready to receive God as my Lord and Savior. However, I still feel that you, as my CSF family, can still teach me about what it truly means to be a good Christian; how to read the Bible with an open mind, and how to understand its teachings. With you guiding me, I know I'll be ready for the life that is awaiting me.